Clarity brings confidence

Vagueness was a constant in my life.  I was vague about the foods I put into my mouth; vague about the money I had on account, vague about the emotions I felt...and honestly, there were lots of times when I just plain did not want to know (denial) truth; because to know the truth would bring acknowledgement of the subsequent damage to quality of life that ensued because of the vagueness...and though the lack of clarity caused pain, I didn't want the change (fear of change= neophobia) that was needed to thrive.

Today, I practice clarity with my food.  I know what foods are toxic and influence overeating...I ask many questions when I go out to eat to have clarity on what ingredients I'm ingesting.  This brings confidence that the foods I put in my body add to my quality of life instead of take away from it.

Additionally, with finances, I keep a spending journal of daily expenses.  Each time I spend, I record; then I plug the numbers into a master sheet for the month so that I have clarity on my spending behaviors.  I also keep track of amounts in savings and checking; and I have an accountability group of people who gently encourage this healthy behavior.  This way, I know I can set healthy boundaries with money...spending what I have allotted.  Knowing truth about finances brings confidence that I have what I need.

And, as for emotion, I practice emotional intelligence...knowing how I feel, what I like and dis like; setting boundaries with self and others...basically, honoring the desire of my inner self...the part of self that is connected with God, my spirit.  God guides me according to my feelings and perceptions (when I am peaceful and in "trust love" with God vs "deprivation fear").  Clarity in emotion brings confidence because it's very affirming to honor self.

Thanks to the guidance of God, I am healing from the malady of vagueness...from self-delusion...from not wanting to know truth. Most days I'm ok with being who I am; used to think that being flawed was a sin...that I was to be perfect; and others had to see only the perfect parts of me...but, in my world today, there no such thing as a "perfect" me...I am exactly who I am suppose to be today...perfectly imperfect.  I receive the grace of God ushered in by the Blood of Jesus....Jesus died to be the bridge leading me back to a relationship with God who loves me unconditionally, imperfections and all...

Are there areas of vagueness, self-delusion in your life? Do you want to improve your quality of life with clarity? What small step are you willing to take today towards clarity, to experience more confidence in your life?