Today, I'll be honest and share that I really don't want to write this blog entry; additionally, I really didn't want to follow thru to completion, a 6 week long service opportunity that ended this morning.
When I first realized this resistance, I questioned, "Why am I feeling this way...why do I want to stop?" Am I not feeling well physically? (have a bit of a cough). Now, if I were not feeling well, then a pause in service would be an act of self-care...one I would honor; but I found that the reason for the pause was something else. I have chosen to get less sleep this week and I'm tired. Then, my thought went to..."well, I'm tired and I'm going to ask someone else to take on this service opportunity". "A-wall" thoughts continued in justification of this. Then peaceful suggestion stepped in...affirming that physically I was well; that that this was the final day of service and that I could rest from service opportunity next month; but, it was important for me to follow thru to completion...which I honored.
There have been times when I have given up...not because of some type of physical illness. In the past, I have" given up"...given up on a relationship, a dream, etc ...not wanting to go the extra mile because perceived pain or fear or doubt of my ability to endure through; but over the years, I have learned that in the mist of challenge lies the growth opportunity. Challenging the doubt, persevering, and trusting that when i need help I can simply say, "God, I need your help...what's the next step" and expect Divine Guidance. In the mist of challenge...where I am weak, this is where God has shown me his great loyalty, caring and ability to strengthen me. When I am weak, He is strong.
Sometimes that divine strengthening comes in form of intuitive thought to ask someone for help; to get info off line from an Internet search; sometimes it comes in form of a 'right on time' comment from a friend or stranger; and sometimes it comes in form of miraculous outcome....so, trudging thru challenge has proven to be a great benefit in my life: I grow in confidence as I learn to trust God as my ever present safety net of provision as I walk faithfully and courageously in this journey of life.
Today, whenever I feel the first signs of frustration (i.e weariness, confusion, etc), I am reminded that I can say, "God, I'm feeling ____________....I don't know what to do right now...what is your will; what do you want me to do now?"; and expect my Divine Super Hero God to lead me.
Are you willing to ask God 's help through challenges of life today....great and small...
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