Social Anorexia

Recoiling like a hot flame from the potential pains of exposure...potential pains or emotionally abusive social lashing resulting from speaking my truth; of being the unique person God created me to be.  Fears connected with revealing who I truly am before the world surfaced yesterday. 

A stroll down memory lane revealed a pattern of isolation also called social anorexia in one 12 step community I am part of; referred to the world of psychology as "social phobia".  "What??", "Me??"..."yes, me"...was the rigourously honest appraisal of self I embraced as I shared my truth to fellow travellers on a teleconference call this morning. 

There are two sides to this social anorexic existence for me:  emotional and physical.  Because I have been sooo "out there" with sharing my thoughts and feeling in virtual recovery rooms, a cloud of illusion fogged a part of my reality.  Yes, I am "out there" emotionally, but physically...I have been tucked away in the corners of life...hiding my talents, my gifts, the message of recovery I've received with a front row seat to God's miracles of healing from obesity, etc...a miracle of physical healing I feel compelled to reveal...to share in a larger audience.

I'm happy to say that I have, for the past few weeks, been willing and have taken action in joining in social outings with folks; blindly taking cues from inner urgings to "go play"; accepting invitations to "join in reindeer games"...to "Kick it", so to speak with others...LOL...I'm so proud of my self for accepting God's invitation to grow through healthy action.  And, as a result of courageously being willing to do differently...to practice healthy actions, I have been blessed with the gift of this awareness of social phobia in my life (previously, I didn't see the physical isolation as an issue to be addressed); to practice acceptance of and gratitude for awareness; cause awareness, opening of my eyes to personal truth without condemnation is my key to living "God's Best Life"...and to being a living testimony for my God and HIS power to transform the unhealthy me into the new and improved healthy me; being a source of inspiration to myself as well as others who need an example of hope...as so many have been for me...I now get to be a trusted servant sharing the healing power of God!!

Today, I am committed to getting the support I need to develop in this newly revealed area of life; have taken steps to heal in this area so that I can continue this journey back to "True Self", back to my own personal place of internal "Eden"...the place I was born to reside.

Is a fear of people/social phobia holding you back from God's Best in your life? If  yes, how so...what does social anorexia look like in your life?  Are you willing to allow God to take your hand and walk you ever so gently to healing from fear of humiliation, approval seeking, and emotional pain perceived from others who are also sick and suffering and in need of healing...in need of their return to "Eden"...

"GOD APPROVED OF ME FROM BEFORE MY MOTHER'S WOMB; I AM THE APPLE OF HIS EYE; I'M SO IMPORTANT TO HIM THAT HE HAS EVERY HAIR ON MY HEAD COUNTED; I'M MORE VALUABLE THAN RUBIES...NOT ONE SPARROW FALLS FROM THE SKY WITHOUT GOD'S KNOWLEDGE...HOW MUCH MORE IMPORTANT AM I...HE VALUES MY THOUGHTS, MY FEELING, MY EMOTIONS, MY CONCERNS AND WILL NEVER LEAVE OR FORSAKE ME...THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND UNWAVERING DEVOTION   :-D"