My "Trust Journal" has been a blessing. About six years ago, I received intuitive thought to start documenting all the times (from as far back as I could remember) God had cared for me...those times when I absolutely knew that I had nothing to do with a successful outcome.
One of my earliest memories was one of near death by drowning at the age of 12. A miracle took place under the water that allowed me to reach the surface, frazzled, fearful, but still alive; another time, my eyeball could have been poked/damaged, but it was not.
After chronicling God's loving presence from my past, realizing that God had always been there protecting me and guiding me...I was willing to surrender the illusion of control I had over my own life...one situation at a time; one day at a time. Today, I have a couple of journals (I write them down occassionally now when I need evidence in new areas of my life) filled with personal evidence of God's protection, guidance and care in my life. When I am fearful, I remember that God is there and will never leave me alone...He is within me; has the hairs on my head counted; values me more than rubies; that he approved of me from before my mother's womb; and wants me to trust him; to commune with him in fearful times; in joyful times and every time in between.
Writing these blessings down has been a pivotal part of my healing...otherwise, I tend to forget the goodness events...as if they had never happened. My "Trust Journal" has assisted in the strengthening process of my trust relationship with God; and has build my confidence in God's willingness and capability to care for me...he truly has my best interest at heart...no matter what the situation looks like, feels like, smells like...and I continue to fan the flames of this loving relationship thru continued trust surrender...without condemnation or need for perfection...I do my best on a daily bases...this is all my God asks of me...my best.
Do you have a "Trust Journal"...personal evidence of God's Loving care in your life? If not, are you willing to start one?
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