Intuition: based on what one is feeling as true without conscious reasoning...
I am filled with gratitude right now. Gratitude for healing. For years, I suffered from a sense of "helplessness" that resulted from victim mentality....that I had no influence over some aspects of my life; for years, I embraced suffering from perfectionistic expectation...not accepting myself as the fallible person that I am...the human that I am.
The above resulted from unhealthy values, beliefs, attitudes and behaviors. I'm grateful today that I am not a victim, that I have choice...I can: 1) accept person/situation as is and do nothing 2) I can accept person/situation and choose to adjust my attitude 3) I can remove myself from the person/situation...what action I take depends on the guidance of my God through healthy feelings of self worth and love that I have acquired through a range of healthy actions: support groups, Bible study, reading other recovery literature, prayer and meditation; and basically going wherever the Spirit of God leads me to find answers: knocking, seeking, asking...
This journey to healing...journey to self love and acceptance is spectacular! As I discover the unhealthy and consciously make healthy choices (it's beneficial to stop at time of frustration...at time of movement away from place of internal peace and immediately say, "God, I need your help...I'm frustrated, irritated, etc"), God, in His timing, does a swicheroo. Somewhere along the way, healthy becomes my norm...and I may visit the unhealthy way of thinking/doing, but I no longer live there....the healthy becomes my norm.
Key in my healing is to "try" new things; to step out on what I feel or to trust my perception/descernment (that is lead of God when I act from place of love vs place of fear)...as I trust a Loving God to be my safety net...trusting that if I fall/miss it, God will help me back up...this part of my journey remindes me of a 2 year old learning to walk...they fall, but they get back up; they find tables and other people's knee caps and legs to hold onto when they need support; but they get courage to try again; until one day they run....development is a process...a series of healthy actions.
One day at a time, more and more, I am learning to trust my feelings and perceptions and seeing that my choices are healthier as result of healthy values. This process of development will continue for as long as I am on the earth...so glad that you are on the road to "Happy Destiny" with me....
Are you willing to practice trusting your "gut feeling"? Are you willing to get help from supportive groups/people who embrace you and respect your right to be human to make mistakes; those who help you see the growth/development that can result from making mistakes and taking healthy contrary actions?
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